Except this time I have a LOT more to lose. Oy. 0lbs down, 55 pounds to go. On day 2 of hcg diet. It’s not as scary or painful as I thought it would be to do the injections. Today is the last “loading” day, then tomorrow starts the actual low-calorie bit.
Oh please, please, please let this be it. Let this be the last time I have to lose weight. I lost 45 pounds in 2009, then gained it back, and thensome. 
I’ve learned that the only thing I can be sure if is my resolve, right NOW. I have no idea how I’ll feel in 6 months, or a year. I’m terrified that for some bizarre reason, I’ll stop caring again. And gain it all back. Again. It’s very easy for me to say right now that when I finally lose all this weight, I’ll appreciate it and never, ever gain it back. Well, then, why have I already done that?! Hmm?! Ugh.
So, I’ll be doing the 23-day hcg diet (although I have 27 injections-worth, so I may just go 27 days), and then six weeks after that, I’ll do another round, if I can stand it. Once I get down low enough, I think I’ll do weight watchers again. I don’t know. I guess I’ll worry about that when I get to it.
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